Sixteen-year-old Alex Rufus is trying his best. He tries to be the best employee he can be at the local ice cream shop; the best boyfriend he can be to his amazing girlfriend, Talia; the best protector he can be over his little brother, Isaiah. But as much as Alex tries, he often comes up short.
It’s hard for him to be present when every time he touches an object or person, Alex sees into its future. When he touches a scoop, he has a vision of him using it to scoop ice cream. When he touches his car, he sees it years from now, totaled and underwater. When he touches Talia, he sees them at the precipice of breaking up, and that terrifies him. Alex feels these visions are a curse, distracting him, making him anxious and unable to live an ordinary life.
And when Alex touches a photo that gives him a vision of his brother’s imminent death, everything changes.
With Alex now in a race against time, death, and circumstances, he and Isaiah must grapple with their past, their future, and what it means to be a young Black man in America in the present.
Thank you so much to Colored Pages Bookish Tours, author Brittney Morris, and Simon Teen for gifting me a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review! You can check out the rest of the Colored Pages Bookish Tour Schedule here!
There is just something about this cover that let me know I was going to love this book. The amount of raw emotion that Morris put into this novel will take your breath away. I absolutely loved the relationship between Alex and Isaiah and I really didn’t want their story to end. I loved how the story developed with them both, even though I was crying for half of it.
Racism is also a crucial part of this story and reading about characters that look like you, going through things that you could very well go through in actual life, just feels different. I was able to relate to Alex on a whole different level. And this is the main reason why I try to read more books written by black authors with black main characters. There is nothing like reading a book and being able to connect to a character on such a deep level because you share the same culture.
The main point of this book that had me in tears was definitely the grief. The way that Morris writes how Alex handles grief is heartbreaking. I felt like I was there with Alex during every tough scene in this book. Alex tries so hard to change the future, and the unknown will have you anxious and in tears at the same time.
Overall, I need every black young adult and adult to read this book. It is not often that someone writes us so well. If I could forget this book and read it all over again I would.
Meet the Author
Brittney Morris is the author of SLAY, THE COST OF KNOWING, and MARVEL’S SPIDER-MAN: MILES MORALES – WINGS OF FURY. She holds a BA in economics from Boston University and has written for video games including The Lost Legends of Redwall, and Subnautica: Below Zero. She spends her spare time reading, playing indie video games, and enjoying the rain from her home in Philadelphia. She lives with her husband Steven who would rather enjoy the rain from a campsite in the woods because he hasn’t played enough horror games, and her darling (and especially wiggly) son. Brittney is the founder and former president of the Boston University Creative Writing Club and looks forward to NaNoWriMo every year.
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